It’s seven til’ seven in the morning…
Whiskey swaying, liquor talking, real shit.
Sun snaking through my windows like an Aurora dream….
Cigarette smoking…
Bowl toking….
Brutal Honesty.
Grey’s Anatomy on Netflix…
Late night.
Sleepy but not sleeping.
Burnt finger…
Glass half full… literally…
:Long Day.
Good Day.
I fuckin’ hate everything right now.
I can’t catch a break. And the reason I can’t catch a break is because I’m a fuckin’ slacker. I do it to myself. I got a temp job last week, I fucked it up and decided I didn’t want it because I had to be at work at 8 in the morning. Ummm…. this was an amazing well known company. And I fucked it up.
What is wrong with me. I have these amazing 1 day breakthroughs and then I’m right back down in the dumps. What is wrong wit me?? And don’t say I need med’s or anything retarded like that. It’s obvious that I am on enough med’s to put Anna Nicole to shame.
I have been out of a job for almost 3 full months and I have nothing to show for it. My room is a mess, my kitchen is a bio disaster and I’ve gained 30 lbs…..
I hate everything… including myself.